Do I Need A Shrink?

Last night we were winding down for the evening. Tracey and I were lying in bed talking. We were discussing how I was doing. For quite some time now I have been having problems with my feet and hands. I won’t go into a lot of detail but I will say both can be extremely painful. Add to this about a week ago I started having some vision problems. I see pretty clearly but it is like I am looking through fog at all times. I mentioned that I wish God would give me some relief in one area. You know…if you are going to mess with my vision then let my feet be pain free.
I have good days and bad days. Some days I function pretty well. Then again some days it is all I can do to make through my work day. When I get home I make it to my recliner and prop my feet up and there I am.
I mentioned to Tracey that I try to stay upbeat but sometimes I get a little depressed at my physical condition. She then asked me if I considered going to a counselor. Well no why would I need to do that? …. Was my thought. Because you have changed was her answer.
WOW…WOW….WOW….What do you mean I have changed?
DO I REALLY WANT TO HEAR THIS?
This led into about a 45 minute conversation of some deep soul searching. As our conversation ended and Tracey fell asleep I sat there and stared at the ceiling for about a hour. You know when everyone is asleep and you are alone with your thoughts it is amazing how much self therapy you can cover in such a short amount of time. While there are areas that I have handled very well there are areas that I have let slip as a father, a husband, a partner, and a friend.
This blog entry is my witness. From this time forward I am going to be better.

Thanks Sweety for everything.